im such a stupid, gullible fool
i created life scenarios. mostly they are with this amazing guy i recently met.
but i know i should stop. i know its not healthy for both of us. mostly for me.
i like to believe that he’s gonna be the perfect man for me but truth of the matter is i dont even know him.
what if he is just playing me?,
what if he see’s me as someone he can have fun with. a friend, an activity partner, sex partner and nothing more?
what if???
what if that day would come, the day that he finally find that other person that he simple cant live without?
the day that he would leave me?
i know we are not in a relationship. but im afraid. afraid of that day, that conversation and that last goodbye.
i simply could not imagine how painfull that will be.
i know i will be sad and crying.
but will i survive it?
will i survive when he leaves me?
i hope that day wont come.
